All my bags are packed
I'm ready to go
I'm standing here outside your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye
But the dawn is breaking
It's early morn
The taxi's waiting
He's blowing his horn
Already I'm so lonesome
I could die...
...Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when Ill be back again...
There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around
I tell you now, they don't mean a thing
Every place I go, I'll think of you
Every song I sing, I'll sing for you...
...Tell me that you'll wait for me
Hold me like you'll never let me go
cause I'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when I'll be back again...
Well, I didn't mean anything by that. It's not addressed to anyone. That's why i removed a lot of parts.
Anyway, I'm going to leave on Sunday, 10:30 am. Still don't know when I'll be back. Probably on Thursday, maybe Thursday afternoon. I'm a bit excited. I'm a bit depressed. I feel so many things at once. I don't know...
A lot of things happened. Once again, I did something stupid. And, unlike before, I did it intentionally this time. How stupid can I be... to hurt the person who trusts me most?
I just hope that we could be friends again. I hope that everything would be back to the way it was before. I hope that eventually you would trust me once more. I will do what I can... everything I must do... to gain your trust back. It's the most important thing to me.
If you will really not trust me anymore, or ever again, I just wish that I could simply be your friend again. I know that you must think that I'll simply screw up again, and hurt you again. Well... I can't really promise change. I can't really promise that I won't screw up again. I know that now. I will do my best to get your trust back. I will do my best to become a better person. Even if I would sometimes hurt the people I care about, I still would try to change for them. It would be better that I had memories with you, both happy memories and sad ones, rather than none at all.
I'm sorry for disappointing you. For hurting you. For betraying your trust.
Thank you for forgiving me. At least, now, I can think clearly. Thank you... Thank you so much.
Please, give me a chance. I may screw up this time... It may only be a matter of time until I screw up again... But, I will try to never hurt you again. I hurt you this time of my own will, thinking I could use you. I will never do that again. That I can promise you, and I do promise you that now.
I know you feel that my words are empty now. I could only hope that eventually you would listen again.
Sorry for the emo post, everybody. Wish me luck in Bangkok... Although, right now I'm worrying over the cultural presentation... And the quiz itself...