I just had one of the happiest birthdays of my life. (If you don't know when that is, oh well...)
Well, sure, I didn't get something I really wanted, like some gadget or anything. I got more than that...
I already have the most important things i could ever ask for. I... feel content.
I screwed up again recently, but it's ok now... Time to move on...
Now, an unorganized collection of events that transpired over the last few days...
Gluon landed in 2nd place in the paskorus. Just as i had left, feeling that we had no chance, i came back... he convinced me to do so... not because our class needed my voice. it was because I had to keep my promise. and when i came back, we tried our best, and it got us this far. go, batch 08!
I've also qualified for a few econ contests. the next one on 24 november. Wish us - me, nicoli, david b., and janella good luck! although, kami nina nicoli at david ung sa 24.
We had such a great day yesterday, painting the school's walls. we had to get paint all over ourselves, climb the wall to paint the fences, and occasionally step on shit. after that we had to douse ourselves with paint thinner to wash the paint off. then we had some food. what a fun activity! I sincerely wish that it would continue next week; regretfully, i may not be able to participate because we have to cram study sessions for econ contests. (modest proposal anyone?)
We also had grad pic taking this week. my creative pose might not be creative, but it doesn't matter. i'll just have to worry about giving pictures to people, when they finally come out.
Due to unfortunate circumstances, we have to restart our str. we have to pull it together now.
I've been touched by the stuff people wrote about me. I hope that they too will appreciate what I've written about them. Thank you so much.
What I would ask from Santa? ...I would want more time, to cherish the people I love and care for, while we are still together.
We'll always be friends, even when we have parted ways. Thank you for teaching me that.
Once again, I screwed up.
I know now why I've been sad all this time... why I've been taking it out on the people who care about me...
I've... lost track of my ideals. I've forgotten my promises, the things i set myself to do, the mistakes i should never commit again. I've forgotten how to care for other people, and their feelings... All this time I was too busy minding my own sorry self... Now i realize why i felt so sad and empty...
I'm sorry... I truly am... I'm sorry for being so insensitive.
I apologize to those I have hurt carelessly... the people who care for me, whom i got mad at because of something small, trivial, insignificant. I am sorry... I hope i get to forgive myself...
I have to change for the better,,, I have to make good on my promises...
I'll do what i can. I'll do my best this time...